NEW PERSPECTIVE
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Since I gave birth to my Andreina, I'm not much of a blogger now. I have no time, been busy taking care of my baby and I don't have enough sleep anymore. But since she's asleep now, I kinda miss sharing what's in my mind.
I've been twitting (http://www.twitter.com/melalabs) how nice it is to be a MOMMA and that I appreciate my mother more now that I am a mother as well. If you only know how freaky it is to be inside the labor room and seeing only all this nurses injecting and injecting all this medic stuffs in my arms. OMG. Anyway, I remember asking one of the nurses if my mom can sit next to me while it's not "the show" yet. She replied, "Mommy, hindi po pwede eh." My gosh.. MY HEART CRIED!
So, many of you were asking me how was it like to give birth.. Painful, YES. Woke up 7:34 in the morning and I immedaitely told my mom that 'I think' I'm having contractions already. I am not that sure of it much 'cause days before I've been feeling slight pains and I've been having spottings. I walked the streets of Sct. Chuatoco and Sct. Reyes. The whole day I kept on walking and walking and I'm not sitting down as to what my mom says so that IT WILL BE THE DAY! 5:00 pm; I can no longer walk. Though my water bag hasn't broke yet, we went to the hospital already and was admitted around 5:30. Hours passed and I can't open my eyes anymore. Drogy na from all the meds.lol
All my nursing friends told me that LABOR is like hell. Honestly, it's not that bad. Only the IE during contractions is the major B. I mean, really! Imagine feeling the unexplainable pain then they'll stick their fingers pa inside you. And what's worse is that you can feel their fingers moving! Kaloka much tehh. I can remember when I feel like pushing real hard while doing IE, someone carried me for the stretcher and the next thing I knew, I was at delivery room already. Btw, that guy nurse is cute :) moving on, so there I was at the delivery room. I can't quite remember but I saw (I didn't felt it) they hung my legs, like in porn films. HAHA and one of the nurses, he was too mabagal in tying my left arm. Namura ko tuloy sya. I'M SORRY. I woke up 3:00 am at the recovery room. I even thought I was
at the morgue and I asked pa if I'm dead! FUNNEH! :))
The long wait is over! I got my angel now the first time I held her, I told her na sya pala yung sumisipa sa tyan ko for 5 months. Ignorant much talaga ko! lol
Being a first time mommy is really a WOW! cheers to that.
You can tell your Jesus that the bitch is back. -Georgina Sparks.
Gadeym night to alla ya'll! Middle finger in the air. PFT!
Why is it that everytime I smoke I feel irritated and I think everyone around me is being INSENSITIVE and the like? Tssss. And NO, I AM NOT MOTHER FCUKIN' PREGNANT! I'm not ready for baby no. 2 yet. And I don't think I will ever be. lol
Browsed my cellphone inbox, purposely so that I can delete all the messages. Until I saw this message from my baby's bastard father.
REYES KA NGA ANDI. (????????) Are you fcuking kidding me? You want my baby to take your surname??? So that's it??? FCUK YOU!
I know I shouldn't stress myself by what he's telling me, but c'mon! All I'm thinking now is how am I going to raise my baby without her asking me who her real father is. My concern, only concern is my baby's future. But with him bugging me all the time, how am I going to do that? I don't want him taking part of my baby's life, OKAY?
I think my mom's right. My fate is now charging me. I am now suffering from the consequences of my actions.
I'm still pale and weak. Super headache and my body aches like hell! I've been taking meds and thank God, it's working. My bleeding finally stopped. Like, what a relief! Problem now is to how to balance my low blood pressure. My mom made me drink herbal juices, malunggay juice AGAIN. Just like after I gave birth to my beautiful baby girl :)
As what I always say, IT SUCKS TO LIE TO MY DAD. Like really! We (yes, WE) lied to my dad cos we don't want him to feel bad about what happened when we went home. We left all the groceries in the taxi cab! All the groceries that my dad bought for us and most of all, to our baby girl. Until now, I cry just the thought of it. Talked to someone about what happened then he told me, consider it as a blessing to others. Then I said, it's like stealing. I mean c'mon! The taxi driver knew it all along and he didn't even remind us that we still have things in his compartment. That's stealing. right? Well, instant groceries for him. Tsss.
Anyway, twas my check up last Tuesday. Oh dear God! The same pain I felt when I was about to give birth! OUCH much. The freaky feeling of seeing only nurses around you and they're all looking in me, IN ME. Ya dig? I saw this tong which they used to stick inside me, I almost fainted. Wew! Then afterwards pulled out something that looks like a fetus. (I'm not pregnant, k?) They said twas Hormonal Imbalance since I stopped breastfeeding 1st week of February, after effect.
Good thing I'm "so-so" okay now. I can take extra care of my Andreina :) kudos to my ever so living Mom!
Feeling sentimental tonight.. I'm listenig to Jim Brickman's LOVE OF MY LIFE. I'm playing it over and over.. I feel like I need to cry.
My mom noticed that I've been texting alot. She reminded me 'again' to never forget that things are different now, and by that she meant PRIORITIES FIRST. Which is, my daughter. When she said that, I thought of otherwise. Like, I'm not supposed to be in-love again.. I hope I'm just over-reacting but I don't know, I feel crushed. So, this is the punishment I get for blowing things off! Of getting myself into a real mess and look at me now, I'm a mom at a young age. I understand that somehow, my family's still bitter about what happened to me. The least I can do is show them that I am responsible enough to take care of my own child. But sometimes, my mom make it so difficult for me to do what I have to do. Like, instead of encouraging me, she sometimes push me down.. Of course, understanding it is. I love my mom, yes. I just don't know how long I can go on whit this feeling I have in my heart.
Lord please, help me.
So, many of you were asking me how was it like to give birth.. Painful, YES. Woke up 7:34 in the morning and I immedaitely told my mom that 'I think' I'm having contractions already. I am not that sure of it much 'cause days before I've been feeling slight pains and I've been having spottings. I walked the streets of Sct. Chuatoco and Sct. Reyes. The whole day I kept on walking and walking and I'm not sitting down as to what my mom says so that IT WILL BE THE DAY! 5:00 pm; I can no longer walk. Though my water bag hasn't broke yet, we went to the hospital already and was admitted around 5:30. Hours passed and I can't open my eyes anymore. Drogy na from all the meds.lol