Feeling sentimental tonight.. I'm listenig to Jim Brickman's LOVE OF MY LIFE. I'm playing it over and over.. I feel like I need to cry.
My mom noticed that I've been texting alot. She reminded me 'again' to never forget that things are different now, and by that she meant PRIORITIES FIRST. Which is, my daughter. When she said that, I thought of otherwise. Like, I'm not supposed to be in-love again.. I hope I'm just over-reacting but I don't know, I feel crushed. So, this is the punishment I get for blowing things off! Of getting myself into a real mess and look at me now, I'm a mom at a young age. I understand that somehow, my family's still bitter about what happened to me. The least I can do is show them that I am responsible enough to take care of my own child. But sometimes, my mom make it so difficult for me to do what I have to do. Like, instead of encouraging me, she sometimes push me down.. Of course, understanding it is. I love my mom, yes. I just don't know how long I can go on whit this feeling I have in my heart.
Lord please, help me.
